Serene Singer

I apologize for the lack of posts; midterms like to dominate a student's life for sure!

Last weekend, my anniversary with Michael, was wonderful and perfect.

This week, where my exams started, was tough. I cried every day four days in a row...

But you know what? I am still filled with joy.

There is pain, emotional and physical (I have a sore throat now), but God is wonderful and full of blessings. He has given me music, so that everyday I have a physical constant I can depend on. I think He gives everyone something tangible to enjoy and glorify Him with. For me, I find joy in music. Whether it is experimenting in a practice room, or mastering a new technique in a lesson, music makes everything better!

Just a quick glimpse of my past week:

Our first hug when I picked up M from the airport

Actually...he picked ME up ;) (I tackled him in front of the escalators, so we had to make a quick relocation haha!)

                                   

That hug was wonderful...being apart for a month and a half is no fun

So so happy!

Hehe, we look so cheesy

After my first college choir concert; he's so handsome, especially all dolled up :) 

Oh, and I wore pigtails one day this week. Because, I'm definitely a grown woman and stuff....

I promise to write more and soon, but now I must rest up so that I don't get more sick =P

Hope you all have a blessed weekend!
Go Coogs!
-Alexandra Anne <3

Prayer

"In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit Himself intercedes for us with groans that words cannot express." -Romans 8:26 

I have come to the realization that for a while now, I have not been a good witness or even a good Christian. My faith is not where I need or even want it to be. See, I get in this pattern with God, which starts with my stubbornness, then I hide from Him, and He has to drag me out by the ears to get me to listen.

Well, I would like you to hold me accountable! "Alexandra Anne, how's your faith today?" I need to have a better answer than "well....God is good and all." I need to be shouting for joy about my Savior! I need to talk to God! Yeah; simple as that!  Well, not so simple, since I seem to avoid it like a child avoids medicine. But His words are healing, and true, and full of love. Yes, there are sometimes consequences, and yes, sometimes it's not going to be fun.
But He died for us. For me.

This is how I show gratitude?
Nope. I'm spitting in His face. I'm a hypocrite.

Corrie Ten Boom once said "Don't pray when you feel like it. Have an appointment with the Lord, and keep it."

So, I'm using this blog as a stepping stone. I would like to pray for you. If I have a regular prayer list, that will be a huge important step! You can comment, or send me a private message, whatever works for you; but I want to pray for you. It could be something as simple as "I hope I can run 3 miles today," to something as difficult as "Please pray for my friend who has cancer." No prayer is too big or too small.
Did you know God watches out for even the tiniest sparrow? Then of course He's watching out for you!

"He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the hearts of men, yet they cannot fathom what God has done from beginning to end." Ecclesiastes 3:11

Please. Let me pray for you. <3

xoxo, alexandra anne

"Seek the Lord and His strength; seek His presence continually." -1 Chronicles 16:11
"Commit to the Lord whatever you do and all your plans will succeed." -Proverbs 16:3

PS. My verse for this week is of a prodigal-son nature: "Let us carefully examine our ways, and let us return to the Lord." -Lamentations 3:40

It's Ok To Cry...To Feel...

Around the blog world we link up with The Gypsy Mama for Five Minute Friday. The goal is to write for five minutes straight, with no editing or backtracking, and then post.

Today's word:

Ache.

Ready? GO!

I close my eyes tightly and hold my breath. I don't want him to see...to know...but it is so strong, I cannot hide it.
"Are you ok?"
In a whisper...."no...."
He wraps his arms around and merely says "It's ok..it's ok to cry."

"Tell me not to worry about the money please?"
She tells me it's going to be ok, and God has a plan....
 my head is so muddled and everything confuses me. I want so badly to take care of it all on my own, but I can't.

Will we ever be friends again? Where is my life going? Will he really stay? Can I do this? 

I ache for all pain to go away. But I know God made me to feel. The aching only means I truly love people and that I can care for them. How sad would it be if we felt...nothing?

Trusting in God is the only thing to get me through the fears and the pain. I will admit, however much I don't want to, that I am scared. Scared of losing it all, scared of not making it, scared of the unknown.
But it's all in God's hands.
And with that knowledge and peace.... the aching goes away.

"Since no man knows the future, who can tell him what is to come? -Ecclesiastes 8:7

STOP.

What does the word "Ache" mean for you?

1 Chronicles 16:11 "Seek the Lord and His strength; seek His presence continually."