Around the blog world we link up with The Gypsy Mama for Five Minute Friday. The goal is to write for five minutes straight, with no editing or backtracking, and then post.
I close my eyes tightly and hold my breath. I don't want him to see...to know...but it is so strong, I cannot hide it.
"Are you ok?"
In a whisper...."no...."
He wraps his arms around and merely says "It's ok..it's ok to cry."
"Tell me not to worry about the money please?"
She tells me it's going to be ok, and God has a plan....
my head is so muddled and everything confuses me. I want so badly to take care of it all on my own, but I can't.
Will we ever be friends again? Where is my life going? Will he really stay? Can I do this?
I ache for all pain to go away. But I know God made me to feel. The aching only means I truly love people and that I can care for them. How sad would it be if we felt...nothing?
Trusting in God is the only thing to get me through the fears and the pain. I will admit, however much I don't want to, that I am scared. Scared of losing it all, scared of not making it, scared of the unknown.
But it's all in God's hands.
And with that knowledge and peace.... the aching goes away.
"Since no man knows the future, who can tell him what is to come? -Ecclesiastes 8:7
What does the word "Ache" mean for you?
1 Chronicles 16:11 "Seek the Lord and His strength; seek His presence continually."