It's pretty safe to say that everyone loves music to a certain extent. Music drives us, entertains us, calms us, energizes us, etc. We don't all care for the same style of music, but most people like some kind of music. It's a common factor among people.
But how many of us mean it when we say "I love music!"? How many of us would put our life on the line for music's sake? Who would risk their livelihood and careers for music?
11 months ago I had one of those moments. I knew. It wasn't what I would've picked necessarily, and I certainly cannot say I chose my passion. It hit me full throttle. Kind of like when someone throws a cream pie in your face. WOOSH! (See how crazy it is? I have to relate it to pie…it's honestly the only analogy that comes close to describing it!)
I fell in love…with opera!
Opera.
Classical music.
Music.
Music….
I can't claim to know my future one bit, I have to trust God on that (He has it all worked out, that I know!) but I DO know that God has given me this passion for a reason. The most I know right now is: go to school.
Wait….what? Go to school…for opera?? What? Ok…
Does anyone know how difficult that is? (This isn't complaining, I thank God every day for the joy of music and the love He gave me!) Applying for colleges with a major in Vocal Performance is a long and arduous process. Long story short: Apply, send in an audition dvd, get (hopefully) invited, go audition at said school, wait for acceptance/rejection, wait some more, wait wait wait. That's the basic process. It's almost May and I still don't know what college I am going to.
But guess what?
I couldn't be happier.
I have a clear message from God. I know what He needs me to do right now. I'm not guaranteed anything, I don't have a clue as to what is down the road. But I know He is telling me to go to school. I can't wait! And each day, I fall more and more in love with music.
Thanking God for His blessings!
Sunday, April 29, 2012
Saturday, April 14, 2012
Tugging at My Heart
You know how when you ride a roller coaster you get butterflies in your stomach? Or the opposite kind of butterflies, when you get called in to the principal's office? What about an altogether different kind of feeling that cannot be described as easily as a butterfly?
Something is tugging at my heart, so to speak. I'm not even sure I'm fully aware of it yet. Is that crazy? Sometimes I get wild ideas in my head and don't follow through. I get excited momentarily, then move on and forget completely.
I haven't been living up to my own standards. (God's standards? Yikes...so not even close) But today I felt the tug. I thought I would feel a different sort of tug, perhaps a guilt feeling. It isn't like that. It's more like a friend you haven't seen in a while is asking you in for a cup of coffee. That's not guilt-provoking at all! This friend says, "come on in, I've missed you. Will you stay a while?"
I'm not summoned to make gargantuan life changes at this moment, but I feel called to start with little changes definitely.
I crave the Word now, and am off to seek God's presence more and more. I cannot do it alone; I'm counting on Him, and the accountability He has placed in my life. (1 Chronicles 16:11 Seek the Lord and His strength; seek His presence continually!)
Will you do the same?
1 Corinthians 10:13 No temptation has overtaken you that is not common to man. God is faithful, and he will not let you be tempted beyond your ability, but with the temptation he will also provide the way of escape, that you may be able to endure it.
Something is tugging at my heart, so to speak. I'm not even sure I'm fully aware of it yet. Is that crazy? Sometimes I get wild ideas in my head and don't follow through. I get excited momentarily, then move on and forget completely.
I haven't been living up to my own standards. (God's standards? Yikes...so not even close) But today I felt the tug. I thought I would feel a different sort of tug, perhaps a guilt feeling. It isn't like that. It's more like a friend you haven't seen in a while is asking you in for a cup of coffee. That's not guilt-provoking at all! This friend says, "come on in, I've missed you. Will you stay a while?"
I'm not summoned to make gargantuan life changes at this moment, but I feel called to start with little changes definitely.
I crave the Word now, and am off to seek God's presence more and more. I cannot do it alone; I'm counting on Him, and the accountability He has placed in my life. (1 Chronicles 16:11 Seek the Lord and His strength; seek His presence continually!)
Will you do the same?
1 Corinthians 10:13 No temptation has overtaken you that is not common to man. God is faithful, and he will not let you be tempted beyond your ability, but with the temptation he will also provide the way of escape, that you may be able to endure it.
Friday, April 13, 2012
Goodbye, But Not Yet
Today is Friday; I haven't written in a while. Five-Minute Friday seems like a good day to get back in the swing of blogging.
Linking up with The Gypsy Mama and writing for five minutes straight. Unedited thoughts.
Today's word? Goodbye.
Ready? Set? Write, Allie...
I will admit I have felt abandonment before. More than I have let on, actually.
Goodbyes have always been inevitable.
I felt that everyone always leaves me.
Tears stream down...silently
My life has been a whirlwind of constant motion, never slowing for more than a moment. My life has also been full of change. Always changing. I've been the girl who doesn't like change.
I never want to say goodbye, because I feel I'm giving up hope for another chance to meet again. Goodbye sounds so permanent.
But it isn't.
You know what else? There is one person in my life who never says goodbye. And He never will.
In four short months I will be saying goodbye again. But I have a peace about it. A year ago God threw a passion into my life; the passion for opera. I fell in love with classical music! So now I must honor Him and the gifts He has given. I must go to school. But I'll come back. It's all going to be ok.
Linking up with The Gypsy Mama and writing for five minutes straight. Unedited thoughts.
Today's word? Goodbye.
Ready? Set? Write, Allie...
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I will admit I have felt abandonment before. More than I have let on, actually.
Goodbyes have always been inevitable.
I felt that everyone always leaves me.
Tears stream down...silently
My life has been a whirlwind of constant motion, never slowing for more than a moment. My life has also been full of change. Always changing. I've been the girl who doesn't like change.
I never want to say goodbye, because I feel I'm giving up hope for another chance to meet again. Goodbye sounds so permanent.
But it isn't.
You know what else? There is one person in my life who never says goodbye. And He never will.
In four short months I will be saying goodbye again. But I have a peace about it. A year ago God threw a passion into my life; the passion for opera. I fell in love with classical music! So now I must honor Him and the gifts He has given. I must go to school. But I'll come back. It's all going to be ok.
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